EMBRACING THE UNKNOWN.
Dearest reader.
I did not see the end coming ,yet I prayed and worked for and towards the end. My feelings betrayed me I guess . Because why did I feel rather weird than excited like I had imagined.
I have always feared and been afraid of endings , I love the routine , the known , the usual I love the comfort that comes with knowing what’s next.
I am not the kind that takes change with ease or embarks on new beginnings with delight . As a perfectionist ,I try to plan my next move always and being in a place where I do not know what’s next is not a good feeling for me .
I hold onto things for so long , sometimes I am even a hoarder . But before I knew it ,it was the end . Should I be excited, should I be scared !!!, I did not know what feeling to embrace without doubting it .
But a friend called me on a Sunday evening “ Frankie what’s next ?” Was his immediate sentence after the greeting. I was shaken a bit. Genuinely speaking it’s not that I did not know what i wanted next ,but may be my brave takes long. (i am on my positive thinking and speaking journey so do not expect me to call myself a coward 😂, no , that won’t come from me about myself ).
<I Giggled as I wrote that disclaimer ^.
Was it time to embrace the un known!! . I guess the bell rang earlier than I had prepared to hear it .
I would be lying If I Saïd I embraced it there and then. So I sought refugee in a Bible plan and I read a verse that said “many are the plans in a man’s heart but the purpose of the lord prevails .” Proverbs 19:21 .
I am not ready yet but now I know that at all times the Lord’s purpose will prevail. I found peace in knowing that I don’t have to fear what’s next or holding onto what’s gone but rather trust that what’s coming will be the Lord’s purpose prevailing.
If you are like me and do not take change easily or if you take it easily . How are you doing what you are doing . Let’s learn from each other in the comment section.
Dedication : Same God by Elevation Worship.
Quite relatable, just like you,I am a hoarder.... Adjusting to change is a major challenge but the trickiest of them all in changing gears. Stepping out of the known,into the unknown is nerve wrecking.
I don't cope easily, but I have found peace in trust God,His plans and living each day at a time. We are created for a purpose, each day, I pray that He shall reveal that to us particularly in our confused,frightened and needy states... He is God,unfailing God.
Resting each day in His mercies and standing firmly on His promises. It will all work out in our favor, by His will.
Things do eventually fall in place. I had my own panic attachs & late night thoughts writing out my life plan,months after campus like i was in control. But God has taught me to take one step at a time. Otherwise great work, we love to see it.